day two of this experiment. today was a long day at work, where i forgot to bring my power chord for my computer, and consequentially didn't accomplish as much as i would have liked to, but i'm still alive so i suppose that is a good thing.

at lunch today i went to bennet's bbq again, and i've determined i don't really like bennet's. their bbq isn't very good, plain and simple. but while i was there i started to write up a list of things i would like to write about this month. so i was fairly productive. not only did i do that, but i began to sketch out some thoughts as to what i believe will help me in writing and playing music a bit more in the upcoming future. this is good since last night i busted out the rhodes and poland to begin brainstorming some new creations. that was fun.

so on to what i wanted to write about today. my recent clothing purchases. i don't have much time to write since i need to learn four new songs in the next hour for band practice tonight, thus clothing purchases is the only logical thing to write about.

last night i purchased some new clothes. really, other than the pair of converses i recently purchased via ebay and the new package of underwear from target, i haven't bought anything since before my accident. in fact, i purchased a sweater that was cut off of me the night of the accident just weeks prior to ending up in the hospital. so i was bummed about that, because it was a neat sweater. but yesterday a friend alerted me that the website from which i purchased said sweater was having a huge sale. she wasn't kidding. so i looked around on this primarily female targeted website, and found a few things. all very hipster looking. but all fairly nice. so i ended up getting two coats, a sweater and a cardigan. huge day for me. but with everything at $10 or less how could i say no? the problem that arises after purchasing new things is that i now have more things. and i'm not really all that good at getting rid of the old things. i figure most people wouldn't want my old things, and i don't want to throw them away, plus maybe i'll come to a place where i might need said old things and they will become useful again. i'm not really one to keep up with fashions and trends, so thats not a huge deal, but i suspect it is nice to wear something new instead of that same t-shirt i've been wearing since high school... (i say t-shirt singular as if there is only one instance of this... there may be more in the upwards of 25-40. not just t-shirts either, i wear shoes into the ground and still have some from high school (i still own and sometimes wear my beloved orange nikes), i've had some pants for 10+ years, collard shirts sure i still have em, lets not even talk about underwear (i'm changing them out, last real purchase on this before three weeks ago was over seven years)). all of this to say, yesterday was a big day. come this fall you might see me around and say to yourself, the individual next to you, or even to me, "hey, he's(you're) lookin quite hip there young fellow. i bet he(you) would like a high five." and the answer to that is absolutely.

but for now, until the mail shows up and the weather cools off, i'm gonna stick with what i've got. i mean, it hasn't failed me yet. well, not in a major way at least. there was a time once before a concert in ft. collins i had to make a last minute trip to the arc to buy a new pair of jeans after a mid day show ended with a blow out in the crotch of the jeans i was currently wearing. further on this incident, those were my favorite pair of levi's at the time. sad day. but while at the thrift store i found another pair of the exact same levi's, tried them on only to notice they too had a blown out crotch, so it was a defect in that styling. at least they almost lasted about a year. rest in piece black/grey levi's style 527.

well, enough talk of clothing articles. that is all for day two. off to practice.

start the ball rolling

today while at work i determined a few nice things about my life right now. i'll share them with you now.

so lately a lot has been happening in my life as many of you know. one event in particular this weekend i had another house party. i have really enjoyed these, and really hope to continue to hold them. granted there are all sorts of tales from this party, as there always are, but one conversation post party brought me to thinking. a dear friend mentioned that he was really proud of me, and quite happy, with the fact that i bought a house with the intentions of using it as a gathering place for music, friends, and community in general. and i have accomplished this. not only have i succeeded in using my house to the exact purpose i desired, but i've also been hitting on all areas of my life doing exactly what i want to be doing. my band is playing the best music we've ever performed, i'm reading quite a bit, i just met the girl of my dreams, i'm working on my house transforming it into what i want, work is going well and i'm actually supposed to be getting a raise in the coming weeks, i'm listening to the music i want to and becoming more and more inspired, beginning to formulate my thoughts for writing and plan on starting this soon. so of course with my hopes for writing more i have decided to come back to this old stand-by and begin to share my thoughts on life and experiences i am currently having.

my hopes are to track this daily for 30 days and go from there. throughout this process i will take a daily picture of myself to keep record of where i have been physically, and to maybe give some sort of context to what is going on. maybe i will expand more on this in the upcoming posts, i don't know right now, but none the less this is my plan. if you catch me slacking, call me out on it. i have so many ideas to write upon, and i'm gonna post little stickies on my computer and try and tackle one a day. it's gonna be sweet. hope you're as excited as i am.

bobo

if there was ever any question regarding the popularity of dressing in a gorilla suit and walking the streets, let me assure you, you will become the most popular gorilla suit dressed individual at that point in time. most likely you'll make it in the paper. thus gaining you instant friends, thousands of high fives, and molestation by 60+ year old black ladies.

not much worth while to say

after much debate and such, i suppose other events may have occurred as well, i've decided to try and write songs again. i thought someone might want to know.

another short thought (which after starting changed directions into a longer thought); or, will work for love advice

recently i have started dating, which in truth is some sort of social experiment for me. this has been a very interesting time for me, as many of you know i seem to tense up a bit around new interests and feel like i act like a complete fool. and i probably do. but what i've noticed, and a friend brought up today, is that i am too nice. and it might come off creepy, or if nothing else unusual.

i wrote on being nice, or striving to be, a few months ago, but it seems to have come up in a new arena of life. it's such a funny thing, well rather awkward i suppose. i've gone out with these girls, and have liked one in particular, and i'm pretty sure through my being nice and maybe feeling self conscious, i'm pretty sure she's lost interest. or maybe it's all in my head. it has been quite some time since i really had interest in someone, and let's be honest, i'm still semi-recovering from one major event which i continued to allow myself to take abuse from for two years post. and the truth is i don't want that any more. today i've sat here, probably not the best thing, but i've sat here drinking beer from the left over keg from our party, and feeling rather sad bastardy. granted there is more at play than just this female situation, but none the less it's a part and on my mind currently.

recently i was listening to caedmons call, specifically one song off long line of leavers, and there is this line in the song that says i will work for love advice, followed by i will mow your lawn if you tell me what i'm doing wrong. lately i've felt this a bit. i met this super awesome girl right, and i can't seem to figure out how to keep her attention. or at least i feel this way. maybe she really is into me, and i'm just missing it. i mean, we've gone out 3 times now, and today she came by to drop off my motorcycle helmet (I drove her home last night on the bike). but after i dropped her off last night i just felt stupid. and pathetic stupid really, i had tears welling up. while on my motorcycle, on my 10 minute ride home at 1:30 am. maybe i'm just not ready for this, but at the same time i feel i am. i am in a place in life where, despite these writings, i've been really happy. life is good, work is work, friends are great, all of the usual things i write about in the positive are still great. so i'm stuck.

at the same time i have dear friends who always tell me how amazing i am, which feels very unusual to have friends tell you this, rather embarrassing truthfully, and upon the discussion of my "love life" or what have you they can't understand. nor can i. maybe it's really that i just long for deep connections with others, and currently i'm lacking in this area regardless of whether it may be romantic or otherwise. maybe i'm just bored. either way i know for certain that i'm less than thrilled with feeling the way i've been throughout today. so this is th point that i ask for your advice and you email it to me. you can give me your theories, thoughts, suggestions, and otherwise, and maybe i'll take it as another social experiment and report back with progress.